I would like to read some pali, and learn some.
I would like to see the abidhamma.
i would like to be where the buddha first gave his sermon.
as i read and continue, i was worst than his most begineer student.
I like reading the inverted mind, and the voidness in the surangama sutra. i so enjoy reading the time when people first tasted the delicious things and become bodies.
then at the same time i have many questions that i cant find.
What i want to say is i know in side my body there is hallow. but i cant today undertstand the True Mind, and my inner most voice that existed some time. I dont know who i am, but i am confused what is the true mind.
I read it said , One moon. i have so many things to talk about meditation, abidhamma, life , science, inverted mind, meditation. synchronisation, science, time and space. time is an illusion and not, time is not real. am i past or am i present, i know i am now here, but i cant tell in comparrision with the universe. and devas and beings. etc.
I know my pain is lifted up by loving kindness, i met someone who killed the love i have for any man. I have so many many questions and no one can talk to me, who enjoys the sensual world.
whereas the dhamma world, no one talks to me too.
so i like to find people like me, in betweens i call myself. i am neither here nor there. i belong that i dont belong.
.. talking & questions or vice versa ..
Hello Marilyn ..
your post touched me ..
Axel
abhidhamma
Dear Friend,
Your post is great...
do you learn abhidhamma...
here people do lot.
with metta